Guys, I'm going to be in a mental hospital for a few days because of my suicidal thoughts. I'm gonna get a diagnoses and medicated. I'm not gonna be here for a while, but I hope I can see you all soon. Goodbye...
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Joined on 9/19/21
Posted by BevelHD - August 15th, 2022
My depression is getting worse. It seems like it just gets worse, better, and then worse again. I've started having suicidal thoughts, and I've been losing sleep. I just feel like I can't be happy for long until I start feeling depressed again. Not to mention my social life is falling apart, most of my friends either disappear or unfriend me. But hey, at least I have you guys on Newgrounds. I just want to say thanks to everyone who's been supportive of me during this time. You've been very helpful. That's all I have to say. I'm gonna try to get on antidepressants soon.
Posted by BevelHD - August 4th, 2022
I feel like nobody wants anything to do with me, BECAUSE THEY FUCKING DON'T!!! For the past 5 days when I asked someone to hang out, they said no. My friends are all I have, and considering only 2/5 actually talk to me, it's pretty hard to try to get over depression when no one is there for you. Half the time when I want to hang out or talk with someone they either reject it or just straight up ignore it. I understand that people have lives, but they can't ALL be busy for 5 days in a row. I'm tired of being rejected. I had a full breakdown because I couldn't take it anymore. Sadly I'm just spiraling more and more into depression. I don't think it's gonna get better if almost no one wants anything to do with me.