I thought my depression was gone, but I was only distracted from it temporarily. Recently I've just been getting worse and worse and I finally broke down. I'm miserable because I can't have fun anymore. Having fun just makes me more miserable because I'm too sad to have fun. The only reason I haven't ended my life is that I don't want to make everyone else sad. If it's a choice between me being depressed, or everyone else, it's gonna be me. Even then, it's bringing everyone else down that I'm depressed. There isn't anything that can be done, I've tried everything, forcing myself to have fun, getting advice from others, medication, and therapy, it only makes me less sad temporarily. I'm stuck in a loop and there is no way out, I can only be depressed, which will do nothing to help. Guys, what do I do? I just want this to end so I can be myself again. How do you have fun when having fun makes you miserable, but not having fun makes you miserable too? That's depression, and it's a battle you can't win.